~*~ My thoughts

Cross country season is over! I'm feeling both glad and sad. It was difficult but a fun challenge (some of the time anyways). I actually improved and lasted a whole season! It's enough just to prove that to myself.

I'm a big fan of Coldplay. I own all three of their albums. I first heard their song, "Yellow" and thought "Whoa! That's a great song." The line, "Look at the stars, look how they shine for you", was stuck in my head for days. I listened to "Parachutes" and "A Rush...", slowly liking all the songs. Then "X&Y" came out and "Speed of Sound" was so darn catchy. I just love the songs. They're moody but uplifting. It makes me think and feel like I can go somewhere away from my mundane life.

I love her songs! They're all so independent and really about declaring freedom and individuality. "Unwritten" was the first song I liked about letting go of inhibitions and pursuing your dreams. "Single" is a great song that proclaims happiness without needing to be in a relationship. "I Bruise Easily" is both emotional and catchy. I love that the songs on "Unwritten" have so many different sounds, from rock to pop to dance.

Whoo! Summer! So far I've been watching Jason everyday and playing chess with him and cards and watching tv and trying to work out for xCountry. I bought the new Keane CD, some parts upbeat and cheery and other parts solemn and gray-sounding.

I don't like writing here because it reminds me of how desolate I am most of the time. Well, TV has been interesting these past weeks. Lost is so good! Every episode leaves me blown away. I love that scene in Veronica Mars this week where Keith and the lawyer blackmail Sheriff Lamb. Hilarious! Desperate Housewives is interesting but not as good as last year. I've been having this love-hate thing with it. Alias is back in 3 weeks with a special 2-hour episode! Yes! After waiting so long, I need a big dose of Alias. Woo, looking at the posts, it's been over 5 years since I started this site, including the posts I lost when I accidentally deleted it. I hope I've grown as a person since then.

This year's almost over! Hope next year will be better. * crosses fingers * Winter break is half over. It's been rainy all week... I got braces so the weather sort of matches my mood. Only on top though (the bottom ones come later). I hope it's a lot later. So anyway, I can't eat anything that requires chewing so it's about Jell-O, porridge, and yogurt. Christmas was fun. We went to Aunt Cassidy's and read home decorating magazines. I'm so jealous of those beautiful houses in there. Then we played with Jason who was staying over. His evil friend barged into our game of dodgeball. What a horrible seven-year-old! So we all quit the game after a while. Then the boy and Jason start fighting over a blue plastic sword and the boy throws him on the ground! Jason was just lying there not getting up. The boy was like, "Whoops, sorry. Gotta go." I thought he was faking but he wasn't. It was so scary. Then we scooped him up and brought him inside. We told him to stay away from that boy but he'll probably just play with him later. Grandma told us that the boy has Wanted signs with his face on it around the apartment buildings. Out of all the kids to play with, Jason chooses the wanted one!

We went Christmas shopping today! Mostly Mimy bought stuff but Judy and I tagged along. We were dropped off at the mall by Mom. We went to Waldenbook's where Mimy bought a Bible for her friend and The Hatchling for Judy. Then we went to Target to look for earrings for Mimy's friend. We walked over to Macy's to compare but those were very expensive. We walked back and at Target, Mimy bought CDs for her friend and Judy and I bought Jennifer Princess in Pink. We got our gifts wrapped by the Arroyo HS band. They had such pretty paper and bows!

Then we went to Michael's where Judy bought a picture frame and a mug. Mimy went to this accessory store where she bought earrings for her friend. Then we headed back to Target where Mimy said she wanted to search for more gifts for more of her friends, even though they were doing Secret Santa and were supposed to only give gifts to the two people they picked. I think she felt guilty because last year, Mimy bought $1 gifts for everyone and her spoiled and ungrateful friends knew she had spent so little on them. She had no money left so she put it in her "mind".

We got Judy and Mimy's purchases wrapped by the HS kids again and went to Kohl's where Mimy saw fuzzy socks she wanted to get for her friend. Then we went back to Target AGAIN! We looked around at picture frames, cards, and candles while waiting for Mom. Mimy found some fuzzy socks that were on sale so she decided to get those. When Mom came, she paid for the socks and a cherry-themed purse for Mimy's cherry-obsessed friend. Then we went back to the gift wrap place again to get those wrapped. Then we went to Kohl's where Mimy bought a Snoopy stuffed animal. We walked back and she wanted to get that wrapped too. I was afraid those people would think we were annoying, going there three and for Mimy, four times. We watched kids skate on the fake ice skating rink while we waited for Mimy. Then finally we went home. So it was a big day of walking back and forth and gift wrapping and money spending but it was lots of fun!

Whoa, I haven't made a new post since August. School is boring and stressful as usual but these three days we get off should help me forget. Lots of new/old tv shows to watch this season: Alias, Lost, Desperate Housewives, Veronica Mars, My Name is Earl, Everybody Hates Chris. Those are the ones I watch regularly anyway. I can't believe Alias is ending this year. I love that show so much and I love loving it even more! Turkey time is soon, I think, like less than half an hour. My plan for this year is to get a talent. Some people are artists, others are athletes or musicians or crafters or writers. I can't do any of that well so I'm making it this year's goal. Here's hoping I don't waste this five-day weekend.

School starts tomorrow. I don't want to go. Maybe if I keep repeating that, then school will magically disappear. Colleen is in my english class at least. Poor Mimy starts school today.

I joined a bunch of fanlistings: Kelly Clarkson ones, Coldplay ones, U2 ones, and a Monk one! It's really good show. I just finished watching season one on DVD.

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince came out! I didn't read it yet but Mimy and Judy did. They like it and say it's better than the fifth book. We're no longer Buffy addicts. Only the first few seasons are good; the rest are really annoying.

Summer is so boring but not in a bad way. Then along comes the news that Mom and Dad might send me to camp! Bleh! Bleh! Bleh! Yuck! The stupidest part is that it's some camp that Dad heard about on the radio. THE RADIO! Like you can trust anything they say. I bet that guy with the raving reviews about the "camp" works for them!

On a different note, we've been watching Buffy every single day. Well, Judy and Mimy are watching it. Today there's Veronica Mars. Both shows are really strange. They both have two blond girls who fight crime, except Buffy kills vampires.

Hooray! School's over! We're just wallowing in boredom now! How fun. It's much better than school though. Mom wants us to go swimming and help out at the library so we won't be stuck at home so much. Mimy and I bought the new Coldplay CD!!! It has a different sound from their previous two cds. I hope if we listen to it more, it'll grow on us. My favorites: "Speed of Sound", "Square One", "Talk", "Swallowed in the Sea", and "Till Kingdom Come"

I borrowed the book Kissing Doorknobs. It's about a girl with OCD. I think I have OCD. I'm always obsessed with things, like cleaning and everything has to be in the right place. I'm too lazy to do any of the cleaning so everything's a mess. Having OCD and being a procastinator is the worse. I just kind of get lazy and pretending not to care when I really do. That could apply to how I view school too. I'm so depressed all the time and I don't even have that many problems. I feel really selfish since there are lots of people with worse problems than me. Plus I'm sick and Mom always lectures whenever one of us is sick. Bundle up, drink ginger Coke, and so on. Okay, I will go outside and get away from this computer. Really, I will.

Hooray, it's the weekend. The end of a dismal week. I went to Open House, which was very embarassing and awkward. In PE, my baseball team is all like "Don't be afraid of the ball" or "Our team sucks because of all the Asians". Me sucking at baseball and all sports has nothing to do with me being Asian. Jenny's been going on about how "loner" she is but she is just being quiet like I am all the time. I guess I'm a loner. I hate all these labels. Everyone's either a "prep", a "rocker", a "Goth", a "dork", or a "poser". Gosh, teenagers suck. I've been all bitter and depressed, more so than usually. Some people are just so annoying.

My highlights of the week: watching Lost and Alias, which was two hours! It was so cool but I was tired on Thursday since I stayed up till eleven. Here's what happened: Irina is alive, (Y)elena is evil and also the head of the Covenant, Sloane goes evil again (I actually thought he was good this time), and Vaughn proposes to Sydney! Writing about TV shows is so much more interesting than my life. Too bad my life isn't more interesting. I also want to write in my journal regularly but I'm lazy and I don't want to write, outside of school. I have so many thoughts in my head throughout the day and I can't remember it all. The good thing about writing online is the font looks better than my handwriting, my hand isn't tired, and you can edit it. It's also very pretty!

I really need to get a life. I don't really have friends or talents or any skills...

Sunday again. The weekend goes by so fast. Teachers are giving us so many projects. I have my I-Search and my family project. The family project is due this week! I haven't even started.

I came home sick from school today. I wonder if my P.E. teacher thinks I faked being sick so I could skip P.E. But if I had, which I didn't, I would have lied before P.E. started, not when it was almost over. After I came home, I sat on the couch with a garbage can nearby, just in case. I ate my lunch as I watched Family Matters. Now I was looking at people's blogs. On Jenny's blog, she said she has hardly any friends. What would that make me? She has way more friends than I do.

TGIF! At school, we had the food faire. Jennifer and the rest of the kids on the Diversity Council helped serve the food. There was lots of food. Asian, Indian/Middle Eastern, European, Latino, American, and a dessert table. I didn't eat any on it since I forgot about it and didn't buy tickets this week. I didn't have any money so I couldn't buy tickets today. The food smelled so good. I would have eaten sushi, Italian pasta, fried chicken, and some of the barbecue hot dogs.

Spring break! It's finally here. No school for an entire week! But I just found out I forgot to renew Mom's video so I owe $8! Should I pay it all? Hmm...so much time. What should I do with it?

One more week until spring break! I really need it. I'm bored since I have nothing to read. Life stinks sometimes. I get really depressed a lot. I just read through my old entries. Am I usually so dweeby sounding? Yay, I'm a loser and a dweeb. Life couldn't be better.

Hmm...very little homework this week. That just means next week the teachers will pile it on. School is okay though sometimes it really stinks. I took a career aptitude test. It says I would be good at writing, art, and nature. I scored the lowest on public speaking and child care.

Mark Schultz's "I've Been There" is such a good song. It's so emotional and deep. It brings tears to my eyes everytime I listen to it.

There's not too much homework today. Yesterday I had a lot. School's the same. Boring. No PE tomorrow! But we have an essay test instead so it's almost the same. It's still extremely better than P.E. A lot of things are. I'm sitting here listening to Coldplay's "Yellow". Oh my goodness, I love that song. I can play over and over and over again but I'll still love it every time. Jennifer wasn't here today so I had no one to hang out before and after school.

No school today. I worked on the site today. I added a book and music list. I started reading The Grim Grotto. Yesterday in science, we watched Napoleon Dynamite. It's such a weird movie but kind of funny. The kids in my class are obxious since they were saying the lines they memorized. I listened to the Rebecca St. James cd I borrowed. It's such a good cd. Home beats school so much but I can't stop procastinating on cleaning. My room's a mess. I have to stop saying totally and so much.

Winter break is over and school starts tomorrow. Those fourteen days have gone by so quickly. School doesn't seem real but yet it's right there, looming on the horizon. Christmas went by and so did New Year's. I planned on so many things to do but I only did a few. We went to the mall yesterday. The clothes were so ugly and the teenagers obnoxious. At Hollister's (Mimy went in and I went next door to the Mac Store), when I went in to look for Mom, there were some bouncer-looking guys who shot me a dirty look. I glared at them and went inside. Clothes are so ugly these days. They're more expensive too. All we bought was a comb and lip balm from Icing, paid for with a gift card Mom found at school and an extra 72 cents.

Before we left the house for the mall, I had a really good laugh. First I told Mimy to name her kid Ty so his name could be "Ty-Poon". Then I looked at the comment that Dickson made in my yearbook, "Are you going to name your daughter, Harp?" That's a little funny but I was mostly glad that I came up with "Ty-Poon" by myself. Mimy called me downstairs to help her bring the rabbit in from the rain. I told Judy, "Off to resume my superhero status!" After I said that, I ran into the screen door. It was like a scene from a stupid comedy. It was so funny.

Yay! Now the index works for both Internet Explorer and Firefox! No more need for two separate versions. Thanks Julie from TheFanlistings.org message board for your help! Yay! Yay!

Grateful to have school off but it always looms around the corner. Last Saturday, we watched The Incredibles with the YBCers. It was so great and better than my expections. I haven't talked to Maria for a long time since she's never online. I hardly ever see my other friends too.

No school today! I always waste my time though. Here's the Preamble to the Constitution. We the people, in order to form a perfect union, establish justice, insure domestic tranquility, provide for the common defense, promote the general welfare, secure the blessings of liberty, for ourselves and our prosperity, do ordain and establish this constitution of the United States of America.

It's strange that it has been three years since September 11th. The time has gone by so fast but it also seems like yesterday. The world changed forever in that one day. It really made us change our perspective on how we look at the world. I hope this day hasn't been too difficult for the families of all those people. The people who died are just names to us but to their loved ones, they were fathers, mothers, grandparents, cousins, brothers, sisters, uncles, aunts, friends, co-workers, and so much more. I'm so grateful for my family and how they're here with me today. I can't imagine how those families feel. I hope God watches over them and brings comfort to them. God bless America.

Whoa, my previous post was so short. Anyway, on Friday the Summer Olympics started. It featured a timeline of Greek history. I'm not sure if the people on the float were actually people. They looked kind of robot-ish. It also had the weird flying blue person and a boy in a paper boat. It wasn't really a paper boat. It just looked like one. Then it was the ceremony of nations. It went on for hours. There were over 200 countries participating in these Olympic games. The USA has over 500 atheletes in the games. Yay!

I'm very bored. I suppose I could read Lord of the Rings but it's boring. I haven't done anything today but right now I have a headache. Dad picked up the registeration forms today. I looked at it and it says school begins at eight! What time will I have to get up then?

Arrgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate computers. I hate the Internet. I hate evil Blogger. Arrgh!!! Stupid old Blogger went and delete my entire blog. My ENTIRE BLOG!!!!! Ahhh!!!!!! That means I have to start over!!!! No!!!!!!! I HATE BLOGGER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DIE BLOGGER!!! DIE!!! I feel like crying. All of my precious entries and the memories attached are gone. Gone. Deleted. Gone. Deleted. I feel crazy.